Half Body And Bust Commissions OPENED
I have opened Half Body and Bust Comissions on my Kofi page!!
Link is here: http://ko-fi.com/shana340/commissions
If you have reference images then please do send them to me. Also I know that most characters are probably gonna have a similar facial structure in terms of the anime style so if there is any notable feature about the character you wanted to add (like they have a more rounded nose or a hooked nose round face or more angular face) that would be nice to know other than that it will be drawn the way i usually do for faces. For backgrounds let me know if whether you want it colored, simple white, or transparent. There are 10 slots for both bust and half body.. as of right now 2 slots are taken for the half body! Also if there is something else added like a weapon or the character is holding something that is an extra pay. I will not be taking extra characters though nor complicated backgrounds thank you for the support!
I WILL NOT DRAW
-Furries
-Robots
-Anything anthromorphic..
-NO NSFW
-Bust Commissions are gonna be fully colored and rendered. These examples are sketches but it will be cleaned up in the finalized work with clean line art and lighting.
Price:$40
Examples:
-The half body can go a bit past the hip but no farther than the knees. These will be colored and fully rendered.
Price: $70
Examples:
RWBY Fandom in general
I have no tolerance and patience for anything anymore. Especially with the rwby fandom its the same thing everyday I post my designs and artwork for it and i get a comment of “Personally i think it should be this!” “I feel like this character should actually wear this!” COOL then draw it yourself! Or people saying “she looks like a dude” (Which is unfair cause I have seen other rwby artists draw ruby and other female characters way more masculine than i do and i don’t see em nitpicking on that, but no its just me.) "Or just flat out comments that are joking about my work. Sure its funny for you but its not funny to me it just feels like you are flat out insulting it. I've had to edit titles, descriptions of my posts so many freaking times cause of this and I just HATE it! There also comments that are complaining about the rwby characters I drew and its not even remotely about work itself its about how they were written in the show! "She didn't develop though" i drew my own headcanons and ideas that I think are cool do you guys just think that I have influence on the show at all? And the most annoying ones i hate seeing is people say "Reminds me of (insert show or game or other fictional character)" What am i suppose to do with this comment? Am i suppose to be flattered or insulted cause it makes me think that I am unoriginal? I’m sick of it and annoyed and it just makes me feel like not doing anymore fan art for this fandom. It is annoying and i’m tired of it! I’m like close to just quitting. I’m sick of people saying oh its just a small minority yeah but i still see it doesn’t change anything! Or “The more popular you get the more haters and negativity you are gonna get. It means you are popular” That also doesn’t make me feel better either! Rwby fan art gives me traction yeah sure.. and thats most of you guys expect out of me but im starting to think is it worth putting all my hard work for this?
Some of you will say “then just quit then?” draw what makes you happy? I have.. drawing rwby did make me happy cause i get a burst of inspiration and ideas that i think are cool and I get excited about it, but when i put it out and it feels like its been shot down and made fun of sometimes by a few people.. It just sucks.. I don’t want to quit because drawing is everything for me.. its the only thing i have.. and hope that i can make a living out of or else I’m just stuck with a minimum wage job that is there for me to survive and get by.
Kofi Support
You probably see this thing every time I post but just wanted to make it more clearer. My roommates had me pay for everything, part of their rent the wifi and gas and electricity. Never paid me back for it. I lost a lot of money and had to go back home and be able to work to earn all of the money I lost back. I work a minimum wage job and kofi is an easier way for me to earn extra cash from what i do and its faster and easier for me to manage on my own in comparison to patreon. If you buy me a cup of coffee great, if you can't then at least share this to other people! Thank you all for the support!
Changes...
For the most part, when I get annoyed or I had a very rough day/week I have a tendency to get my emotions get the best of me. I am an emotional person (I mean thats what helps me draw certain expressions at times), from that frustration and anger, I sometimes lose control and lash out at you guys. I do feel bad about it of course but I don't want myself to be known as that. My friends suggested me going to school therapist since 1. free to students and 2. it will help me alot.
It's not just the attitude either, there are times where I go into a deep depression as well. It comes and goes as depression usually does, but I feel like it gets worse everytime it does come back. Last time was a couple days ago, and I just didn't feel like doing anything, I didn't want to eat, drink, draw, get out of bed, go to work, hang out with friends, etc. I just thought it was all pointless and I wasted my time. I don't talk about these things sometimes because I feel like people don't care or they wouldn't understand.
To put it simply the changes are that I'm trying to be better not only in my art work, but my mental health as well.
Not Enough
Deviantart and my art work in total is a entirely different thing going on. So I have been feeling that my work is not good enough. That is of course is natural to every artist, every artist faces it in their life, but for me it keeps coming back at some point where I am at my lowest. I want to do better, but I feel like I have not made enough progress. I know I am making progress it's just not enough, I feel like I should have made more than I do now. I also feel that everything has pretty much been a failure in my attempts to make art into my career. Commissions were an absolute flop, Patreon failed, the whole buy me a cup of coffee was also a fail too, point commissions failed,etc... Basically every attempt for me to make money out of what I love to do has been an absolute failure. It frustrates me of course and usually I can say okay.. you know what thats okay you can get back up from this.
That's the problem though.. I DON'T want to get back up from this anymore. To be honest I am tired from failing every single thing that I have done and I have to just keep going. I just want something for once in my life, something that I tried to be a success. I have been fighting for so freaking long to make art into a career and it has all but failed me and the worst thing is that I feel that I just sacrificed my entire life going for something that I love so much only to have it fail me. That's what I fear the most because it just proves to my parents that they were right the whole time about "You can't make money out of art" and so far from the results I have been getting, it's pretty true.
I know this maybe repetitive, but it's just something I need to say and let out before I have a freaking breakdown from everything. Also I don't ever like holding in my problems and feelings cause that is never healthy and the last time I did that, it lead me to a really bad freak out and urge to commit suicide that I rather not go through again. Thank you guys for taking the time for reading this and I am sorry if this feels like just another phase I am going through.